Yesterday was my children’s last of school! I am more excited because coming September they will be in a new school. We moved to a new town during the school year so I have been bringing my children to their old school back in forth which has left me with little time to get things done and time for myself.
Brand new changes are welcomed right now. Seeing their beautiful happy faces everyday smiling. Makes it all worth it. I have more time to get my new place together the way I want it. I have more time to enjoy my children’s presence even though the boys may be starting camp soon. We will see though.
So.. lets get the running, frolicking in our yard with neighborhood kids. drinking sweet tea, reading lot of books, working on summer packets, dancing and singing like crazy maniacs that we are. Bring it all on!!!
Welcome to my lovely garden… just wanted to use this place to bring out the positivity that I have through out my life. To share it and give inspiration for those that don’t look at their lives as such. It took me awhile too.
To start… I have a beautiful life full of a loving husband, my three kids, great friends and family. A place to call home and food in my belly. What more can I ask for?
My birthday is coming up (July 14th) Which would make me 29 that makes me much closer to my peak. I am very adventurous and enjoy everything around me. We have tickets awaiting for me to go to a Nascar race in New Hampshire. Will be my first time to go to a race like that. Have you ever gone to one? If so, then do you have any advice or any suggestions?
Lots of dark days
Hard to come back from
Can’t seem to bring back the light
Only to find a smile on a young child’s face
Which brightens my day only to fade just a little
On going worries and strife’s are strong
Can’t explain this feeling but, a hard to come to the light
A hug from a small child that I made
brings me back to the bliss I was missing
Just like the first day
I know now that life is what I make it
For her sake I will keep a hidden smile
My little Secret
Why can’t I just be me?
Why can’t I stand up strong?
Why do I allow you to hurt me?
(Yell) Never again I say!!
I lay here dying, without you I fall
Can’t take my reflection, the pieces will fall
Bring on the undoing pain and regrets
They are many
Bring on my tears, just let them fall
Hold on to what we have!
Just be you…you say
To scared to be in pain once more
So I don’t say a thing… it’s easier that way
I sit here wanting, waiting for this to end
I am me, but you don’t see…
I have changed, you haven’t seen…
Open up your eyes, before it’s too late
I am stronger than you think, you don’t care
Many life lessons have brought me here
I had no one to hold on too, always have been alone
This fight, a fight within
Just be you…well who am I?
Fear has consumed me
Too much pain… terrified of myself
I continue to be silent ,you will never know
Take a gander at my life
It’s full of twist and turns
To many regrets and shames
To many final outcomes
Only to set myself up for failure
But, nay I will not allow it to consume me
If I did, then I would be finding the bottom of a bottle
I have more than myself to worry about
This is my strength, not my weakness
I may or may not be doing it right
At least I am trying
Three little monkeys full of energy
with no yard and only a small space to call home
Makes this house become a lively place
Don’t be surprised if you see my little monkeys jumping all over
Don’t be disgusted if you see one of them hit each other
Don’t be worried if you see me in the corner crying
Just know that I am doing my best, after all being a 24/7 handler of all these affairs makes, one want to run for the hills
I keep telling myself I am doing great
After all they are fed, warm, smart and friendly
This I have worked hard, can’t you tell
I want to thank you all for your help
I want wish you all good fortune
I want to know what good fortune feels like that
I know now I have to be patient and prepare for it to come
Through lots of hard work I am waiting for my reward
Only to wait for my whole life
Only to see a glimpse of what that may be
I wake up this morning to a porcelain cup on a brown stranded surface
Smells of delicious goodness wafting in the air
A smile comes to my face once I see the golden milky swirling liquid inside
I take a sip of this sweet liquid and purr in my seat.
So, what do you think?
Did you understand or is there any mistakes?
Comment below please
Today went well. I have been
working on helping my children to get their summer packets done. In eight days…wow! To try to keep my boys focused on it is really a hard skill to teach. They are doing great on them though.
My daughter might be going to school this year. I am excited for her. She loves watching her brothers go on the bus in the morning. Hopefully she will get to be on it herself depending on her testing. Its bitter sweet but, I will be getting half a day to myself to work from home! This will be brand new for me.
I have never been one of those mother’s that cries on their first day of school, doesn’t mean I don’t miss them…just know that going to school is very good for them and they can stretch and grow.
Now thinking about it…are there anyone that isn’t ready for them to be in school?!
First off ,I wanted to first start out to tell you that I am by no means a morning person. Coffee and a shower are usually my go to things for waking up and a little music (Enter Sandman) helps too. Today though, today was different my lovely daughter who likes to get up super early was full of energy and I was the walking mommy zombie. She doesn’t mind apparently lol.
Now I am sitting here with my cup of delicious jolt of a cup and so many ideas are running through my head. I just had to start write…I had a thirst for it. I think every since having my children I am starting to become a morning person…naw only some days . So we are sitting in the same room one is on the tablet watching you-tube videos and while I get to write like a bandit. Actual mommy time…so crazy, I must be in a dream!
What I really should be doing is my to do list for the day but, for some reason I its not that important to me right now. I feel like procrastinating a bit. To treat myself to some alone time while I can before the boys wake up. Does this make feel like a bad house maiden… sometimes. I have to make time for myself right. Like in the movie Moms night out said “I need to have my oxygen mask to help others.” I have been starting to live my life just like that and you know what I have noticed that I am not such an uptight, angry at the world edgy person anymore or at least lessened a bit. So it’s very true you need to work on yourself before you help others. I tend to forget about myself and then become pretty drained and ragged. With no energy to do anything and with three kids, a dog and a hubby that’s a big NO No!
So I will leave you all with another quote of inspiration that I am also living by…
Sitting here drinking my twisted tea. Able to finally relax to let the words roll out. HAHAHA yeah right! Not with the beautiful crazy life that I have. I look at the word love and it has many meanings for it. I look at the word love and I see many visions from my minds eye. Of a mother and a baby cuddling on the couch in the early morning because the baby was hungry and it wasn’t day break yet. Yet, the unconditional love is there. I also an elderly couple walking down a park path hand in hand with the years never even touching their love that’s going strong.
All beautiful visions … we all want this .. right?? I know I do.